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Post by Paladin on Feb 17, 2021 19:24:19 GMT -5
is it weird to just... not feel anything anymore?
Every day just feels the same as the one before. job is the same stress, travel is the same stress, and nothing relieves it?
Everything seems terrible and everyone in charge of everything doesn't seem to care.
I don't ENJOY things the way I used to. I'm really thinking of canceling all the TF preorders I had for Kingdom. maybe even just selling off everything.
How do you keep going?
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Post by machsabre on Feb 17, 2021 20:19:35 GMT -5
Well, there is no magic solution. But you're not alone in these feelings.
First thing is first... If you have a primary health care physician, talk to them. What you're describing sounds like an early onset of clinical depression. Which, you know... Being in a pandemic can contribute to it. I was surprised when I was diagnosed with it a few years back. We live in a super stressful world, and honestly our society doesn't really seem to make it easier for us. Our hobbies are really healthy distractions from those worldly stresses. And as life moves on, you need to shift those hobbies to maintain your personal wellbeing. Not to mention a consideration of a career shift too, if possible.
We are getting older and we need to think about these things a lot more seriously than we used to.
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Post by SporkBot on Feb 17, 2021 20:29:42 GMT -5
I know the feeling. I'm unemployed, like my Dad (we're both looking), but that's another worrying story...and I'm scared of the financial responsibilities that may fall on me, and part of the reason I've been unemployed is not just my depression, but also the utter emptiness I see in every job opening I see on Indeed. And that's not including stuff I'm just not qualified for. The thought of getting another job that'll make me just as miserable as my old one isn't great. My siblings told me "the only way out, is through." Which is easier typed than done. I'm waiting to hear if I'm getting a face-to-face interview for a sales job at a nearby cellphone shop (actually, same plaza as the my old job...used to be a blockbuster, but is now half cell-shop, half Wing Stop).
I've been having the same thoughts, of things not getting better, and the people with the power to change things not seeming to care. It doesn't help when your own valid statements, even about your own feelings, often feel unheard.
But there's always some reason to go on, the trick is finding it. It could be you're too focused on the problems that you don't think you can fix by indulging in personal hobbies or activities. If you're watching a lot of news, maybe watch less, or none for a while, and more videos of adult dogs playing with puppies, or pets reaction to their soldier owners returning home after a while. Watch sitcoms and cartoons you haven't seen in a while...or try an old one you never saw before. It doesn't have to be a binge, just an episode or two at a time. Perhaps there's a certain catharsis you need that you haven't really accessed. Write out letters to people, but don't send them (though, I did send a letter to Sean Hannity about how he's poisoned a family member's mind...not that I think he'll read it). Maybe transform some of your bots while listening to some soothing music. Do short ranty blogs about stuff you know and still like (maybe you'll have better luck than I've had on YouTube). Maybe find some shortcuts to make work and travel a little easier. Maybe set aside a day of the week to do some special activity. Try prayer or meditation, if you're so inclined. Take up shadowboxing somewhere at home where you won't break something (or some other easy form of exercise...I've seen some videos about 1-minute planks that are supposed to be really beneficial, and I'm kinda trying that, if for maybe 30 seconds at a time...don't do it on hard floors, though). Maybe a change in diet could help.
If work is where you're feeling the least amount of caring, maybe think about going through channels to figure out how to make things better. Ask a few diplomatic questions.
I dunno. I'm spit-balling here, and I've never considered myself great at advice. Though you could go to YouTube and check out Psych2Go's videos, if only to get informed context on some stuff (they specifically say their vids aren't for self-diagnosis).
After the 4-year shit parade this country has gone through, it's going to take serious work to make things better, but it'll happen.
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Post by Paladin on Feb 18, 2021 21:05:15 GMT -5
Well, there is no magic solution. But you're not alone in these feelings. First thing is first... If you have a primary health care physician, talk to them. What you're describing sounds like an early onset of clinical depression. Which, you know... Being in a pandemic can contribute to it. I was surprised when I was diagnosed with it a few years back. We live in a super stressful world, and honestly our society doesn't really seem to make it easier for us. Our hobbies are really healthy distractions from those worldly stresses. And as life moves on, you need to shift those hobbies to maintain your personal wellbeing. Not to mention a consideration of a career shift too, if possible. We are getting older and we need to think about these things a lot more seriously than we used to. i TECHNICALLY have a primary care doc but I haven't actually been in over a year. Last visits had some hidden expenses so i've been somewhat hesitant to seek anything else.
Career shift might not be an option for the same reason; i lucked into this current position and I doubt I'd be able to find anything better. I have to move later this year so I'm already terrified enough about what i can afford in the future.
There are days now when I actually feel scared to eat, even when there's food in the kitchen. I can't help but wonder "what if things get worse" and I won't be able to get anything more.
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Post by machsabre on Feb 18, 2021 21:28:42 GMT -5
i TECHNICALLY have a primary care doc but I haven't actually been in over a year. Last visits had some hidden expenses so i've been somewhat hesitant to seek anything else.
Career shift might not be an option for the same reason; i lucked into this current position and I doubt I'd be able to find anything better. I have to move later this year so I'm already terrified enough about what i can afford in the future.
There are days now when I actually feel scared to eat, even when there's food in the kitchen. I can't help but wonder "what if things get worse" and I won't be able to get anything more.
Okay, that sounds a LOT like symptoms of severe anxiety, which is probably elevated due to the pandemic. It's been theorized that many of us have undiagnosed PTSD from this crisis. (I know I had to up my meds for it.) Good news is that a career change isn't what's needed. Now bear in mind, I'm making a lot of general assumptions, because I don't want to start asking private questions about your life that may or may not be any of my fucking business. You might wanna seek out a therapist. Check your insurance and see what you're covered with. Simply being able to talk to someone, one on one and face to face. If you don't have insurance... Well, I know that feeling. Basically if you're flooded with anxiety, it becomes seriously hard to focus on anything else and your mind starts racing and it's unable to settle down and formulate a routine to help you out. But yeah, it sounds like severe anxiety.
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Post by Matrix Dragon on Feb 18, 2021 21:51:09 GMT -5
Well, there is no magic solution. But you're not alone in these feelings. First thing is first... If you have a primary health care physician, talk to them. What you're describing sounds like an early onset of clinical depression. Which, you know... Being in a pandemic can contribute to it. I was surprised when I was diagnosed with it a few years back. We live in a super stressful world, and honestly our society doesn't really seem to make it easier for us. Our hobbies are really healthy distractions from those worldly stresses. And as life moves on, you need to shift those hobbies to maintain your personal wellbeing. Not to mention a consideration of a career shift too, if possible. We are getting older and we need to think about these things a lot more seriously than we used to. i TECHNICALLY have a primary care doc but I haven't actually been in over a year. Last visits had some hidden expenses so i've been somewhat hesitant to seek anything else.
Career shift might not be an option for the same reason; i lucked into this current position and I doubt I'd be able to find anything better. I have to move later this year so I'm already terrified enough about what i can afford in the future.
There are days now when I actually feel scared to eat, even when there's food in the kitchen. I can't help but wonder "what if things get worse" and I won't be able to get anything more.
Yeah... this sounds all too familar. That last bit especially. I was there a few years back. I'm gonna echo Mach a bit here, in that looking for a doctor or therapist to talk to would be a good plan.
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Post by Matrix Dragon on Feb 19, 2021 20:02:59 GMT -5
And then I have one of those nights and mornings. Because TIMING, my issues have them!
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Post by Paladin on Mar 7, 2021 21:46:46 GMT -5
Officially have about two months to find a new place to live.
I've been in this spot almost seven years; at first I was feeling afraid of leaving but now i'm not even sure I care what happens next.
checking prices for other stuff in a reasonable area isn't helping. Definitely can't afford a doctor visit now...
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Post by machsabre on Mar 7, 2021 22:06:45 GMT -5
Worry about the place to live first.
I don't know what you're dealing with on finances or the like, but Apartments.com seems to have helped a lot in the past.
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Post by Gojitron on Mar 10, 2021 17:45:35 GMT -5
I'll leave this here. www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helplineEven if you can't afford a doctor visit, there may still be a way to talk to someone, especially with the additional stress of having to find a new place. Yes, it's the government and I have no idea what they can offer, but I'm of the opinion that something is better than nothing. It may be worth checking out.
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